Getting back on track

Decided to blog again for the first time in about a year and a half. Of course it's about food. I'm noticing a trend that I only blog when I want to talk about food or about eating better and I'm just going to go with it.

So I'm getting myself back on track again. As much as I held back from eating too much junk over the holidays...this was the least amount of junk I've eaten around xmas ever...it was such a shock to my body that it is still fighting off being sick today. I really should be more vocal and refuse more sugar but I think that's way more difficult than refusing meat. When refusing a piece of chicken, many back off realizing that there are many reasons why one can't or won't eat meat. Refuse a piece of wedding cake and people look at you like you're personally hexing the bride and groom. Try to explain why and you get a glassy-eyed blank stare. This country is simply not taught good nutrition in schools. If they did, the grocery store would look very different.

I've learned from taking a great many psychology classes that eating disorders are a result of people feeling like they are losing control. If you feel like you have no control over your life, the one thing you can control is what goes into your stomach. You can control how much or how little and if you don't want it there anymore, you can remove it whenever you want. Whenever I feel like I'm losing control I notice that I start tracking my calories. I don't change what or how much I'm eating, rather, I record everything I am eating to see if it is on par with what I should be eating. If it isn't I can look at my notes and figure out what is out of balance and why it may be that way. I can see the similarities in what I do and what someone with an eating disorder does except my way is much healthier for the body.

Now don't think I'm patting myself on the back or anything. I've always said that the only reason I've never developed an eating disorder is that I can't go a couple hours without eating something and I have a borderline phobia about vomit. I guess I could go the laxative route but I refuse to take a pill unless I have no choice. I took one pain killer after getting my wisdom teeth removed and that was when I got home from the surgery. Same with when I cut my eye.

So after all that my point is, I'm tracking what I eat again. I'm monitoring calories, fat, carbs, protein, cholesterol and iron. I've been having bouts of dizziness again so I'm keeping a special eye on the iron. We'll see how it goes.